Some days are bad. I know what is and what is not. I know the problem, the discomfort and the reasons. I am not happy that I am aware of everything and yet can’t change anything. I woke up today hoping I will meet and wish her on her birthday. Or maybe, atleast send flowers. Or maybe I will call and sing the birthday song. Oh, after letting all the imaginations run wild, I finally wished her, over a text message at 1030 in the night. So much for imagination and dreams. I, sometimes, have very vivid dreams. I remember the dream for few days. The memory of the dream slowly fades away. It becomes hard to draw a line between the dream and earlier memories of them. Sometimes, I wonder if I really have memories or are they dreams from that time? What’s the totem for that? Today, in the end there was lightening, thunder and it rained. I am calm now.